I am happy.

I knew that the time would come that I would happily post on here, and here it is.

So I mentioned a few blogs ago about how things had changed with Carron & I; & Nana Frankie and I. Here it goes..


Carron MacLeod,

Carron was only my youth leader and Sunday school teacher when I posted that blog in early October. She was part of my church family - but that was it. Since then a lot has changed, a lot! Carron stepped up when everything failed at church and she became everything to us. Honestly, anyone who has had the privilege to meet Carron, should be eternally grateful - because no matter what happens, she is there. I have a friend, a sister in christ, a second mother, and a lifelong teacher. I love her ! :]

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Nana Frankie,
I met her in June .. the rest is history.. I love her. I am so glad I have her in my life. :]

k.
i cant write anymore :s i used to be decent at it
now i'm a tool.

I'm tired of crying..

I am tired of hurting, stressing, and worrying about much more than a grade 12 should. Money issues are not my problem or concern, but they are my life - it isn't fair. I'm too young to have all this on me.. Mom's worsening depression, and not being able to afford the medicine. Moving ? I don't know .. Can't keep our car. Can't afford my birthday .. nothing, it sucks, and isn't fair. It's a part of life, but too much a part of mine. My eyes hurt, i've spent too many hours crying this morning.

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Everything happens for a reason.

Today was and has been a bad day. I woke up asking if I could go visit Nana Frankie as I miss her, and the answer was no as our car had been taken away because we couldn't afford the payments. Ever since my Mom lost her job in June things have been super tough and they just haven't been getting easier, and it makes me so sad and anxious. I am working a lot, or was before - now my hours have been cut tremendously. I am needing these hours to not only support myself but help support my family . I'm stressing about things no 16 [almost 17!] year old should be stressing about. My Mom didn't want me to tell anyone about the car thing so I hope she doesn't read this haha.

Last night me and Rachie went on a long walk, we left just after 10:30 and didn't return to her house til almost one. We talked about our church family and mainly Carron, the whole walk. About how much we love her and how loving she is , no one has quite stepped up like Carron has the past few months. I think it was good for the both of us to realize how important she is, and how truly lost and devasted we'd be without her. We are blessed.
I am soo not in a blogging mood - I am grumpy and have work later, I tried my hardest, but I just can't do it !
I need to blog soon, and do a good one - when i'm happy [haha never]
<3

Savior, he can move the mountains- my god is mighty to save..

I don't know how I feel today, sort of empty, and funny feeling. I think a lot of it is exhaustion, and reading all 105 blogs last night left me filled with sadness and many mixed emotions. First, I miss Amy, where the heck did she go? She was so nice and loving on all my blogs. Second, I miss the ways things used to be .. the way I was soo close to some people, and I can't decide if its for the better or worse than we are no longer as close. It did make me smile at times though, me and Carron are a lot closer than we used to be when I wrote those blogs in October, and I now have Nana Frankie.
I just feel FUNNY. I'll expand sometime next week on all of this, for now - I am taking a computer break.
Bye.
Cait;

I miss blogging.

I used to be addicted, blogged almost everyday - but my life has taken many unexpected turns, and I just kind of died off from blogging. First of all, I got a job. Dairy Queen has taken over my life in so many aspects. Not even just the working, but the people, and the friendships - not that I see that as a bad thing by any means, but my life is just sort of dairy queen now. Now school is starting in a few weeks, senior year. That's fricken scary. I am so anxious, and nervous not knowing what is to come. I failed my grade 11 math after MANY many struggles, and I chose not to go to summer school so now I must figure out an alternetive. Plus, I want to go to bible school -but it's over 4000 dollars and my parents aren't paying any, so I am stressing about that.

In June, I met Nana Frankie. So I have spent a lot of time with her, bonding, and learning - growing, and trying to start a relationship after sixteen years. I would never say it was or is easy, but it is worth it. I am so glad she is in my life, even if it took sixteen years to get to it. I am going to bed, a long day that involved work, church and friends - my life these days.

Hopefully, i'll be back soon :)
-Cait.