Mixed Emotions.

Oh my goodness, I can not describe to you how utterly confused I am right at this time and moment. There are no words for my devine confused self. I am confused on many situations for many different reasons, lets start with Glo.

Ah, okay. Glo and I met on the computer like three years ago. She was one of the first "myspacers" I met and kept in touch with. She was wonderful to me, I called her "myspace mommy" , and I loved her to pieces. We would talk on the phone, and she sent me a grad present, card and picture. I really cared about her and respected her. She met Jess ---- she'd had her on her list before but once she met her it was like bye bye Caitlin. Sure they are the same age so it helps, but Glo was a huge role model to me. I introuced Jessica to her three best friends [ well ... once upon a time best friends ] Glo, Suzi, And Julie. Julie was an accidently indrocution and it wasn't really me that did it, but she met her on the flight home from my house - so she often thanks me. I am so glad Jessica has Glo and Suzi, but I often can't help to hurt because without me she would of not known them, and maybe those two women would still take the time to talk to me. But, back to Glo. When she met Jessica, EVERYTHING changed, she'd talk to, and about Jessica 24/7 and I got sick of it [ as I'm sure all of you do :P] so I pushed away from her and just gave up. Then, she lost her son - I could not imagine how hard that would of been, and I knew she was going to be different,but was unprepaired in HOW different. She did a 180. She no longer EVER checked how I was. Our webcam "dates" were gone. She was never online and if she was she ignored EVERYTHING. Jessica went to see her in that December, two months after Danny died, and my jealousy flared to a whole new level. Wait - how does that work. I knew Glo first, I knew Jess first yet they were meeting first? I was terribly upset at how that could happen. They went had a good time, and I felt a bit better. Glo and me got in this massive fight, I don't remember how, or why , but oh my goodness, WW4. Jessica who was closer to Glo said she'd NEVER seen a glo like that before, and was STUNNED at the way a grown woman was treating me. After MONTHS and MONTHS we'd started talking again, just this year actually. What hurts the most is I never once got an apology, yet I apologized. I know saying "sorry" is because you're sorry not because you expect one back, but I was hurt to a degree I cannot explain and I thought I deserved one - guess I was wrong!!!!! Everything became "okay" we started talking once more, and we were good. She still told me she'd come to my graduation as she did for many many days prior. Everything was fine, until I heard they were going to spain. I BURST out crying, I would of died to go to Spain, let alone, with Jess, oh man. I had gotten over my jealous ways, but I was STILL human and that did hit me really hard. I put it off, and didn't think about it. Until the day came, I got sad, but knew they deserved a good time so I let them. Oh man, oh man. Glo had left Monica [her daughter] a comment, saying " I miss you, wish you could of come. Jessica is being a baby because I wont do her hair and make up, omg who does that" or something along the lines. So I asked Jessica what that comment was referring to, and no later than 30 seconds got a "goodbye" email from Glo and Monica, woah woah woah. Now I am to blame because I TOLD Jessica, but the people who said it are off okay. Shouldn't I be mad at them? They said it, NOT me. So thats the latest. Glo and Jessica were done after that trip, Jessica could not have a friendship with her, after all the drama that went on in Spain [ there was more than that ] Just the other day, Glo decided to make her status " I need a vacation, a REAL one" Woah Glo , take it back a step. Two weeks ago you were telling me Jessica was giving you a chance of a lifetime and something you could of never done alone. She offered you a 6,000 dollar trip for 400 dollars, and that isn't good enough for you? You were the one that ruined it, soooo back it up. Last night Glo starts talking to Jessica, and talking casaully as if NOTHING happened, no sorry's , no "i was wrongs" NOTHING. Just I miss you and Love you. This has happened before, and I am scared Jessica will not only "forgive her" [because I know thats whats right] but go back to her, and be hurt once again. I feel like its on repeat.

Haha
I'm sure you're sick of me now. But I haven't even gotten to the next and final issue as no one will want to read all this.

GUESS WHO IS MOVING BACK. You will NEVER GUESS. No other than Emma Louise Hazell. After merely moving less than TWO months ago [June 23rd] she will already be back sometime next week..Hm, that was not the plan, I wish I'd known that when I bawled at my goodbyes. I do not know what to say anymore, its offical. Caitlins SPEECHLESS. How do you handle this? I met an amazing friend in grade eight, i love her to death, but if I had known this all would have happened, i'd never would of befriended her. Listen to this. She moved here August of grade eight. Stayed all of grade eight and all of summer [ although she was in summer school ]. Moved September 23rd of Grade Nine. She moved back August 20th during the summer before grade ten. She moved June 23rd at the end of grade 10, and is supposed to be coming back at the end of AUGUST. Can you BELIEVE it. I just can't handle this, I need stability and I am not getting it in the least.

Seriously.
what the HELL do i do.
I need your help amy and JENN!

(:

pictures and videos,
from my aunts house and my cartiledge piercing.

you can't possibly understand how many times I've heard this song , and OMG ew, at my voice.

a random picture, you can kinda see my ear. it got real boring waiting for the kids .
crazy cousins. love you kids.
can you guess what we had for a snack LOL. I love Robyns cute face, her mismatched outfit (: Me and my baby girl (:. It was sunny, and I look bald, ew. Haha, EW. My side of the head looks gross, but earrr! Its really red still , or was then since its soo new (:

Update.

I feel as if I am not on here enough, nor updating, as I was at one point. Between camp, summer, friends, and babysitting, I am extremely busy and do not have the time I once had, so whenever I do get a moment I prefer to do something else on the computer. I finally have gotten to the point that if I do not update, I am gonig to explode. I am going C-R-A-Z-Y I tell you. Already, I have just sat down and my little cousin is over here bugging me to come on, whats new. LOL. So anyways. Throughout the week, I did not do very much, at all. I just sort of hugn around at home and relaxed, it was very nice. But, friday I went and got my cartiledge pierced, which I do have pictures of, but am too lazy to load (:. I went with a friend, it hurt, and is very annoying, because its all gross and pussy, aren't you glad I told you that. I went to "midnight madness" which is basically downtown Bowmanville stores with many sales. I got up early Saturday to leave for my aunts and since then I have been going CRAAAAAZYYY. LOL No jokeee :. I have been babysitting pretty much 24/7, and have been watching them the whole time. Which I do not mind too much, but -- uhh, a five year old and two seven year olds gets kind of crazy (:. I have not been donig much here, but I better go, I have a little girl who wants the computer, and a little boy who is blowing a whistle :s. so yeah. Better go, the house could be on fire for all I know. I'm done for now. BYE

Sunday! (:

On Sunday, The last real day of moms vacation, I decided we hadn't done anything all week so we have to do SOMETHING. After visiting Jens page, I saw they went bowling, and it looked fun. I suggested liberty bowl in Bowmanville, which is disgusting but it was something! It is closed though, my Mom said. So we ventured off to North End Bowl in Oshawa, the five of us [my family, and my future sister in law (Isabelle ! ) We got kind of lost but we made it! We went bowling and I came in third, Mommy won the first game, then dad, Me, Isabelle, and my brother came in last. We took a break and played some games! I had like 15 dollars, so I bought tokens for the kids, and we had lots of fun. I gave all the tickets I won to Quinn, and Isabelle. And Isabelle ended up having something like 320!!! Quinn only had 150, but he still got some cool things. We played our second game of bowling, and surprisingly I came in first, VERY surprisingly as I suck at bowling. Dad came in second, Isabelle third, Quinn fourth, and the winner of the previous game -- last. We left NEBS at about 3:30 and went out for a late lunch, early dinner to East Side Marios. The love birds got spagetti, and I got cheese cappaletti [ or something like that LOL ] since Chicken fingers aren't "italian" enough they took it off the menu -- my FAVOURITE. We ended off the meal by the kids sharing a funnell cake. We came home, and watched over her dead body. It was a really good day, and I have some pictures, and a video :)

I love love love her laugh to death, its honestly hilarious. And the way she bowls. Oh god, I love youso much Isabelle! :] Little Abba. Ewh , ps. Don't mind my discusting voice & laughhh. :

Me and Quinn, my hair looks soo messy.

Me and Abba. [Isabelle]

The Happy Couple :P Happy one month! :]

Me and My Mama. I love you.


She had an amazingly hot candy. LOL Youre too cute.

Update on MOI!

I feel like summer has gotten the best of me, and actually having a summer has been amazing. I kind of forgot about blog land, and although I be sure to read Jen, Amy and Jills blog everyday, I have been too lazy to update mine. Soo where to start? On Saturday that just passed I went to wonderland, OH MY GOODNESS, i had a fricken blast. But, I also hasd a little accident... LOLOLOL. Oh my god, I'm ashamed, I drank like 5 drinks and really had to pee .... and.... well I went on an extremely scary ride, and I guess you can fill in the blanks. Yes - I am 16 in 34 days but I still am not potty trained. Thank Goodness for the log rides that get you absolutely soaked, only the people whom I told knew :). Haha, anyways. I got a nice tan and had a great day with my best friends. Sunday - I went to church in the morning, and then to Sams Club, our favourite "deal store" and I got the second sisterhood of the traveling pants book, which REALLY excited me, but I have got to page 100 and cannot get into it, unfortunately. I am still going to try though. And I bought 22 packs of gum. LOL I am writing about such pointless things, but I was soo excited :). Monday all I did was clean my room :( Trust me - it was BAAAAD. But it was nice not getting dressed, not showering [ ewh i know ] and just relaxing. Yesterday, I finished my room,. and then went out with my mom and my old neighbours. We went to the kitchen store, wooooowww excitement, aha, and my Mom showed me just what my 15,900 dollar new kitchen was going to be like, I love it . I am soo excited. We went back over to our old neighbours and had a good time. We went to Quinns soccer which got rained out, because of the lightening, watched big brother and went to bed :). And today was by far the best day. We went out with our old neighbours - AGAIN [we love them , sometimes ;)] Jill, Alley, Brooke, Mom and I, went to see the sisterhood of the traveling pants movie [which i loved FAR more than the book ] and then walmart, where I got some jeans, and pj shorts, and fudge mmmmm. And then we all went out to east sides for dinner.
There is an update you're going to never care about.
--Cait ♥

Camp pictures!

Rachel had loaded a bunch of pictures of us from camp,
and i took some of them to put here. Krova, and the polish
girls, and Rachel and Kimberley and I, will all be found in this thing.

My day with Nick.

I actuallly had an amazing day yesterday, with Nick [ my boyfriend ] !. We went to see Mamma Mia, first. He said I could pick the movie and he did not care, so I did, and Mamma Mia was the choice. It was a good movie, but I was just happy to be with Nick, I wouldn't care what movie it was. After that my Mom said he could come over for a swim and supper, so he did. I wasn't in the pool for more than five minutes though, because it was FREEZING - i thought. So I got out, and he stayed in, for a bit, til it started thundering, and then he obviously got out. We had hot dogs and hamburgers for dinner , how romantic ;) Just kidding lol. Then , my mom had bought a bunch of ice cream, but I had decided I wanted to go to Mojos (an ice cream place about a mile away) so we went there, it was amazing. Just the two of us , walking and talking. We went and I got a turtle sundae and he got a chocolate milk :]. We hung out here til about nine, but I was pretty much falling asleep, I'm still in camp routine, and getting up at like seven thirty, so I was up early that morning. I had an amazing time, and I think we might hang out today. If we do, i'll get pictures, I need pictures :)

I'm home.

for good. And you all have alot to catch up on. At the moment I have no pictures because Rachel took the majority of them, and she has not posted them, so I will post them when I get a chance. I was not home much today, I got home, slept, showered, and now I am babysitting, the kids are asleep so they said I could go on the computer. I am totally, fully , exhausted, but I have got to stay awake until like 1 am, and its only nine. I guess thats what a month of camp does to you. I am sure I will sleep in real late. ANYWAYS, back to something you MIGHT just care about. Camp is offically done. I am so happy to be "home" for good, but I will miss the people that work there, I met some really good friends. Caroline, Christine, Marie, Luise, Amy, Sam, Ala, Anja, Matt, Nathan and everyone else, made it all really amazing for me, and I will truly miss you all. There was so much drama in that kitchen though - to the point we almost got fired this past thursday. We were given a choice to stay or leave and all chose to stay considering we had made so many friends and realized gooodbye would be hard enough without rushing it. Plus we only had days left. I met a woman, named "Cosmo" and seriously, I would not of survived those weeks without her. Cosmo is older than us, but she cared about us like a grandma would, encouraging us, and constantly telling us she loves us, she is really amazing, and I don't know what I would of done without her. I can't wait to post all the pictures I have from Rachel, there are so many with all our friends, well mainly "Krova" because we spent alot of time with her, we also went on a canoe ride friday. Oh man,that was so much fun, we went through the bull rushes or whatever, and got stuck on a HUUGE log and almost put a hole in the canoe. I miss Marie already and I do not know what I will do without her.
AND to make matters better, I get home and me and Nick are talking, and we confess we like each other, even though he knew I liked him, and next tthing i know we're dating ! . We are going to the movies tomorrow, and then going swimming if the weather co-operates. I'm estatic. I am going to go sleep, I'm really tired. I know Im babysitting but they said I could sleep if I wanted to, and normally would not, but I cannnot control this tiredness any longer.

I'M BACK!

for the weeekend, well, actually until tomorrrowww at nine; so far so good. A lot of drama which is becoming hard to handle, the stress is building and the emotions are rising, but Kimberley, fortunately, is keeping me sane. I can't wait to be done for good, but I am not going to lie, I will miss camp - just not the six am wake up, 250 loads of dishes a meal, and some of the people.



Here are some pics

Me and the "polish girls"; ala and anja; i'm going to miss you girlies.

Me and Anja; "piosenka" ; i'lll really miss you, it was nice meeting you.

My bed .... haha, so messy and so unmade.

Rachels messy bed LOL.

Home..

for the weekend that is.

What a busy week i've had. I've missed you all, and I have not even had a moment to process all that has gone on. Right from the begining, i'd been on the go, on my feet all week. We did 450 loads of dishes, from tuesday til today, and I speak no word of a lie. Dishes dishes dishes, and this is just PRE-CAMP. I cannot imagine when we have many campers what we are going to do. I wish that I was a cabin leader, I would enjoy it, and the pay more, but, I suppose you've got to do what you've got to do. There was a bit of drama, which was obviously expected, put three really good friends together, and keep them together on 7 hrs of sleep a night, for 6 days, what does that add? DRAMA, so I suppose the little amount was good, I do not like our fellow kitchen worker, and she really "rubs me the wrong way" so I am struggling there, but overall, its fine. This is a video of "Skippy" and the horse lol

ps. my camp name is smosh. :] kimberley thought of it for herself, and she chose skippy, so i stole, smosh. weirdd, but unique.